Long time and a new battle

Well i havent been on here for weeks and weeks on end and well....i finnaly got my procedure done two huge shots administered through xray guidance wow the first one hurt like hell the second didnt even feel the doc was generous with the sedetive lol. ill try and be on here more often. I will definetely try and keep up to date my happy new life.

Too much work lazyness and my vacation coming

Well i went from not enough computers to too many of em. i am a bit overwhelmed but oh well got to make some money. so better get to it. hopefully i can get finished with em soon and also i got to make it to my vacation time next week i only got to work for another 4 days and its 5 days off whoohooooooo. cant wait its gonna be sleep and slack fest. i cant wait. relaxing and resting with my little woman i so cant wait.

Sometimes good luck isnt good.

So last night wasnt a good night it was actually pretty bad. I was walking by a lady playing on her machine a few hours before i got off work. Suddenly i hear her machine hit a jackpot and then i looked over and she hit a 1700.00 jackpot. well i looked at her said congrats and then all of a sudden i started to call for a floor person to help her out and get her tax paperwork done so she can get paid. well the lady looks at me and tells me to not leave and stay due to her wanting to give me a tip once she gets paid off. i was like ok thank you. the lady pays me a 10 dollar bill. then shortly afterwards i get told by a supervisor that the manager wants to talk to me. she then tells me that the floor people who get paid 18 dollars an hour pluss tips and the change clerk who gets minimum wage and tips usually up to 800 dollars a night average complained about me saying that i hover over jackpots to see if i can get a tip. I was instantly pissed. if there is any reason i stay is because the person asks me to stay due to him or her wanting an escort to his or her room or their car. But the reality is that they dont usually tip guards because floor people and change clerks dont like it to be known that gurads can accept tips they want them all to themselfs go figure. makes me not even want to do my job or to give good customer service. so yeah my willingness to do a better job is pretty much gone.

All around rant for the week and my opinion about games and life.

well i had an unexpected 4 day weekend with me calling out the last two days of my work week i got sick and felt so horrible. my stomach was all out of wack and to top it off my back wasnt any better. i hate days like this especially cause i know im gonna get a write up at work but it will be the first one to date for me at work so far i have a written verbal warning so no big whoop. They fall off your record after a certain time so ill be ok. I just have to make sure i have enough time off for valentines weekend cause im gonna have a 5 day weekend with Tany and J.R. im in the middle of playing a new xbox game ( army of two the 40th day ) which so far is coming out to be awesome the game play is cool and the controls are really well done unlike its predecesor.


So im also excited bout Tany and me going out to dinner and mabey a movie on valentines but who knows its all her choice i want her to be happy and feel good that night. I just hope she doesnt get sick or feels too run down to go out that night. As for all and all its been a good week other than me feeling like crap. But then again that usually happens to me. I hate the fact that my body seems to be betraying me slowly. This is one of the reasons i tell the younger kids i meet in there 20s. Dont party too hard youll be sorry. I tell them, then they look at me and go yeah right. I look at them and shake my head because i see my young friends slowly destroy their bodys with beer or booz or drugs. I saw my best friend do pot from the age of 15 to last yr 33 when he had a heart attack in his car next to his wife now he had quit doing pot due to the fact he became a family man. I dont honestly think pot had anything to do with it. But when he was younger he was doing coke and other things im sure he never told anybody about. He is still recovering from all the surgerys hes had to have after the heart attack especially due to the artery he had taken from his leg to repair the damage in his chest. They rushed him into the E.R. when his leg started to die because it lost blood flow to it.


Life is weird when it throws things like this at you. hes my best friend even though the last few yrs. we havent kept the closest touch. He has outgrown so many things like i have. Why does life have to change so much? Does it have to change? For me its been a hard long road in life. But now im finnaly where i want to be. Im with a great girl and great boy ( her son ). Would i try marrage again? Oh yeah with her yes anybody else.......I dont think so. I told her today that she was my saving grace. She thinks i would have ended up with my ex again. I told her hell no i think i would still have left my ex and if tany hadnt been in the picture i would have self destructed. I would have had a short life after that of alcohol driven rage and turned into a super A@# hole dated some hootchie girls and ended up waking up dead in my parents house found by my fam and destroyed their lifes for a while due to my stupidity.

Tany.....as i said before my saving grace. Nothing better in my life and nothing else i want more. Our relationship started very rocky but man we have come so far. I love her like nothing else in this world. She makes me be a better man and makes me strive to be better. I strive to be a good stepfather and a good man overall. Im i perfect by nomeans am i. will i ever be????? probably not. But i have no problem trying for her..........

The new ipad

Well looks like apple has unleashed a new gadged we will not be able to live without. But wait.....its nothing more than a larger sized itouch/iphone. Hmmmm milking an allready hot idea. Wait oh ok they want to try and take the market on the new up and coming trend of netbooks. I see nothing wrong with this. Hey everybody needs to make money and apple has to do something to stay on top with the gadget of the century. 9 out of 10 people have somekind of ipod or apple product in there house. not very many people have macs due to the fact they are the most overpriced computer in the world. Now back to the ipad, its a great looking device and the fact it can use all exsisting apps you allready have it will have even more powerfull apps strictly for it.


I am a hard core pc user and yes i own an ipod. But i think for real computer users a pc is the best but thats my opinion. Now most people will scream at me for this saying i dont know what im talking bout. that macs are better there easyer to use and they have superior power and blah blah blah. well i hate to say this but all the ( improvements ) mac has done to their systems well guess what people there all based on pc tech and modified to be used on macs. the new mac o/s is based on pc o/s. people dont realize the new office software they so love that is on macs......Microsoft wrote it for mac. Big surprise there. mac still only has a huge 8-9% of the world under its belt why? pcs are cheeper better more upgradable and just over all more cost effective for the everyday user. unless your a very richy rich yuppy scum bag who looks at a 4 grand price tag on a new mac and can aford to buy the new model every 6 months hey by all means go for it. But the rest of us who are lucky to get a new pc once every 5 yrs we cant afford a mac. My pc does everything i need it to do and also if it breaks i can fix it for less than a fraction of the cost of a mac. which by the way you have to take to a mac store pay your entire paycheck to have it diagnosed then drop next check and part of your rent to get it fixed. and not to mention you have to wait 2-3 weeks to have it done. why? because its the way mac does it they wont let other places fix their products so they can charge an arm and a leg and your first born. I really hate macs. but anyways the new ipad looks good but looks like all the cons its got no cam,huge bezzel no flash, keyboard is awkward, ect ect ect. see for yourself and whos to say its not gonna cost double a netbook cost. lets see what happens

A relaxing day

Well its my sunday night and me and the little woman are enjoying the evening just laying in bed relaxing in bed together shes on her itouch and watching paranormal state while im on the laptop ( roomates laptop ) im just on here surfin the web and blogging and joined twitter for the first time tweeting away like an idiot. Lol got to admit its kinda fun. i got some girl following me now but i dont know who she is. so if shes some hater or someone not very nice shes getting my virtual boot up her ass in the form of beeing blocked lol.

Another weekend is here

well here i am again enjoying another weekend i know its monday night but its when my weekend is. So we have settled down to watch jack blacks year one. So far its funny well as funny as jack black is. So far its a good weekend with the little woman and the boy. Dont think im going t stay up to late tonight it was such a long weekend. I really cant wait till feb. I have 5 days off its going to be such a nice time. Got a call from my life long buddy ralf he needs help with his computer again. so hes gonna come and drop off his pc at my pad today so i can see what he screwed up this time. hopefully there isn anything hugely wrong with it.

What a day off.......

Well today i felt like a wreak cause i ran out of my pain med. I felt so horrible so i emailed my doc a few days early and asked for a refill. I waited for hours and was wondering when my doctor would call because she always calls. This is what i always get from her but do i get that this time oh hell no i got the email back this time so i waited an extra few hours. I was like OK what if she emailed me so i checked and i was like to quote the greatest of wise men "DOH!!" so i told tany that i had to go out and she was like whats wrong and i told her that i got my refills and she just started to say "Thank you Jesus" mostly because she doesn't like to see me in pain but also cause I'm an irritable son of a bitch when I'm in pain and i tend to freak out and lash out allot. Unfortunately she gets the major blast of the anger and frustration from me. I'm very impossible to live with when I'm in pain. The pain is so bad having what i have which is spinal stenosis is hell. its something that well i wouldn't like to see anybody have and i have to say doctors are all dumb asses because there more worried of losing their licences due to people who are drug addicts or just scum. i understand they have to pay for the insurance for there boats and there brand new camaros. I understand that doctors need to have that new 65 thousand dollar car or bike or new condo in downtown San Diego. Hey i know San Diego is expensive to live in oh wait i live here too and i don't make a doctors wage.

Look i understand doctors don't want to loose what they worked for so many yrs. I just wish that there was a way to plug into the doctor so he or she can feel what I'm feeling and maybe they can go oh my goodness you really are in pain here you go have your meds and maybe here I'm going to give you a stronger med for now etc. etc. etc. For those of you who don't know what spinal stenosis is its a condition that affects the spine by narrowing the inner part of your spine. Mine is in my lower back which has affected me so badly that when I'm without the meds. Its crippling i hate it. when I'm feeling OK I'm a juggernaut.

waiting for taxes to come back.

Well were here waiting for the word from our tax preparation guy. If last year is any indication of whats to come then were in for a good return. First and foremost we have to pay all the bills we have slightly piled up. Most people say they will use there return to do this but most dont......us we really have no choice. But for us we really have no choice due to in part that we have some pretty hefty debt but it is manageable for sure and we have a really good strong chance of having money left over and we have a perfect plan for what we want if there is enough money left and that's a new Net book for us to use that way i don't have to borrow our roommates laptop when i need to be in bed. Its very convenient to have a laptop and this net book we want is very small and very well loaded with goodies web cam mic plenty of extras like windows 7 is included and well its very light weight especially compared to the laptop I'm on right now. plus it generates way less heat. i cant wait it will be used to hook up to our flat panel when we want to watch movies that we download off the net. now that's useful. there's nothing better than items that are functional.......who's with me.

Looking forward to my vacation

I cant wait till Feb when i get a cool 5 days off and get to just hang out with my little woman ahhhh. just be there and relax nothing else but hang out with the little woman. hopefully we have some cash to do a little something fun by then maybe we might get our tax refund and pay off the bills and if we have a good amount left then we might get our new laptop we have wanted for a while now. i really want to do something nice and romantic with my girl as well that weekend is valentines day weekend but that's a different blog all together.

Work nights are really rough some nights

Last night was pretty rough for a wed/Thursday morning. As soon as i got to work last night wooohooo. People needing medical assistance and some dirt bag stealing peoples tickets its a rough night when its that bad and its not even a weekend night. The worst part of it is i work at a casino where your supposed to have fun and maybe even win some cash but that also attracts sometimes some pretty bad people to come to the casino and see if they can find left over tickets or ask for cash off people that are doing well on the machines or tables. Those kinds of people we kick out as fast as we can prove that there doing something wrong of you know what i mean. Oh well.

Crazy people dont surprise me anymore

So late last night we were all sitting around watching a good movie on tv. Well we were allmost through the whole movie when all of a sudden we heard a loud slamming outside the front door and turned out it was a drunken punker girl. She was extreemly disoriented and confused and was looking for some guy named stevie who she was in my complex with. She was confused and started to pound on my neighbores door. The guy she was looking for was a white guy and my neighbores are black. My girl wanted me to take her home and i was like crap. so i took her home and she ended up barfing when she got out the car and we were crossing the street. after that i got her into her trailer park and then got her to her trailer and then she allmost fell again on her strairs. the hole time she was crying cause she was soounding like a suicide case it was bad. but after i got her home she managed to get in and then i walked away. what a night.

Bills what a world......

So last night i got a call from my cable company which i have been making payments because my bill got big for some unknown reason. Well i was talking to an account specialist for my bill when i mentioned i don't know how my bill got so out of hand. Then the assistant told me calmly "well you have been ordering allot of pay per view adult movies" I was like "WHAT!!!!!?????" well it turns out that somebody has been ordering those kinds of movies. they had verified the box serial number and they stated that the movies where ordered through the cable box itself. i was perplexed because i know it wasn't me or my roommate. hell i know my roommate watches porn but hes too much of a cheapskate to pay for porn and well why pay for it when you can download it free off the Internet. I mean who orders porn off cable anymore when we have free porn off the Internet please!!! Well after much debate and talking to a customer service supervisor she removed the newest 13 movies that were charged to our account which added up to 174.95 which brought our bill considerably down. so the next time you get a large bill don't waste your time talking to the regular employee who has very limited power talk to the supervisor who can do something about it. Only then can you have something really done for you.

away for too long

I havent used my blog in a while well lets face it i opened it and didnt use it again. well im going to try and keep it up a little more. well in the last 4 months i have had a few things go wrong. the cars breaks are bad and the tire is leaking and to top it off it started to over heat and it could be the thermostat and or both the water pump. so taxes will be our saving grace this year. Our big hope in our little but tough family that there is enough money left over after the important things get paid to get a new little bad ass net book from dell. its a dell mini 10 i love it its gonna be pricy but hey in the long run it will be worth it. cant wait till we order it and get it in. first thing we need for it though is an external cd/dvd drive burner and a copy of norton anti virus so yeah. cant wait.

love my baby gothictany