well i had an unexpected 4 day weekend with me calling out the last two days of my work week i got sick and felt so horrible. my stomach was all out of wack and to top it off my back wasnt any better. i hate days like this especially cause i know im gonna get a write up at work but it will be the first one to date for me at work so far i have a written verbal warning so no big whoop. They fall off your record after a certain time so ill be ok. I just have to make sure i have enough time off for valentines weekend cause im gonna have a 5 day weekend with Tany and J.R. im in the middle of playing a new xbox game ( army of two the 40th day ) which so far is coming out to be awesome the game play is cool and the controls are really well done unlike its predecesor.
So im also excited bout Tany and me going out to dinner and mabey a movie on valentines but who knows its all her choice i want her to be happy and feel good that night. I just hope she doesnt get sick or feels too run down to go out that night. As for all and all its been a good week other than me feeling like crap. But then again that usually happens to me. I hate the fact that my body seems to be betraying me slowly. This is one of the reasons i tell the younger kids i meet in there 20s. Dont party too hard youll be sorry. I tell them, then they look at me and go yeah right. I look at them and shake my head because i see my young friends slowly destroy their bodys with beer or booz or drugs. I saw my best friend do pot from the age of 15 to last yr 33 when he had a heart attack in his car next to his wife now he had quit doing pot due to the fact he became a family man. I dont honestly think pot had anything to do with it. But when he was younger he was doing coke and other things im sure he never told anybody about. He is still recovering from all the surgerys hes had to have after the heart attack especially due to the artery he had taken from his leg to repair the damage in his chest. They rushed him into the E.R. when his leg started to die because it lost blood flow to it.
Life is weird when it throws things like this at you. hes my best friend even though the last few yrs. we havent kept the closest touch. He has outgrown so many things like i have. Why does life have to change so much? Does it have to change? For me its been a hard long road in life. But now im finnaly where i want to be. Im with a great girl and great boy ( her son ). Would i try marrage again? Oh yeah with her yes anybody else.......I dont think so. I told her today that she was my saving grace. She thinks i would have ended up with my ex again. I told her hell no i think i would still have left my ex and if tany hadnt been in the picture i would have self destructed. I would have had a short life after that of alcohol driven rage and turned into a super A@# hole dated some hootchie girls and ended up waking up dead in my parents house found by my fam and destroyed their lifes for a while due to my stupidity.
Tany.....as i said before my saving grace. Nothing better in my life and nothing else i want more. Our relationship started very rocky but man we have come so far. I love her like nothing else in this world. She makes me be a better man and makes me strive to be better. I strive to be a good stepfather and a good man overall. Im i perfect by nomeans am i. will i ever be????? probably not. But i have no problem trying for her..........
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