Well today i felt like a wreak cause i ran out of my pain med. I felt so horrible so i emailed my doc a few days early and asked for a refill. I waited for hours and was wondering when my doctor would call because she always calls. This is what i always get from her but do i get that this time oh hell no i got the email back this time so i waited an extra few hours. I was like OK what if she emailed me so i checked and i was like to quote the greatest of wise men "DOH!!" so i told tany that i had to go out and she was like whats wrong and i told her that i got my refills and she just started to say "Thank you Jesus" mostly because she doesn't like to see me in pain but also cause I'm an irritable son of a bitch when I'm in pain and i tend to freak out and lash out allot. Unfortunately she gets the major blast of the anger and frustration from me. I'm very impossible to live with when I'm in pain. The pain is so bad having what i have which is spinal stenosis is hell. its something that well i wouldn't like to see anybody have and i have to say doctors are all dumb asses because there more worried of losing their licences due to people who are drug addicts or just scum. i understand they have to pay for the insurance for there boats and there brand new camaros. I understand that doctors need to have that new 65 thousand dollar car or bike or new condo in downtown San Diego. Hey i know San Diego is expensive to live in oh wait i live here too and i don't make a doctors wage.
Look i understand doctors don't want to loose what they worked for so many yrs. I just wish that there was a way to plug into the doctor so he or she can feel what I'm feeling and maybe they can go oh my goodness you really are in pain here you go have your meds and maybe here I'm going to give you a stronger med for now etc. etc. etc. For those of you who don't know what spinal stenosis is its a condition that affects the spine by narrowing the inner part of your spine. Mine is in my lower back which has affected me so badly that when I'm without the meds. Its crippling i hate it. when I'm feeling OK I'm a juggernaut.
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The kind of meds you're taking for this are my very favorite kind :p
ReplyDeleteBut, on a serious note...I hope you're feeling better. My Dad had a degenerative disk disorder on parts of his spine, and I can't begin to imagine how much pain you both have gone through. Is the problem you have fixable?
It is fixable but risky due to the fact that the way to fix it is to make an incision into my spine and use a lazer to onpen my spine and let it decompress. Thats why my doctors are keeping this as a last resort.
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