Too much work lazyness and my vacation coming

Well i went from not enough computers to too many of em. i am a bit overwhelmed but oh well got to make some money. so better get to it. hopefully i can get finished with em soon and also i got to make it to my vacation time next week i only got to work for another 4 days and its 5 days off whoohooooooo. cant wait its gonna be sleep and slack fest. i cant wait. relaxing and resting with my little woman i so cant wait.

Sometimes good luck isnt good.

So last night wasnt a good night it was actually pretty bad. I was walking by a lady playing on her machine a few hours before i got off work. Suddenly i hear her machine hit a jackpot and then i looked over and she hit a 1700.00 jackpot. well i looked at her said congrats and then all of a sudden i started to call for a floor person to help her out and get her tax paperwork done so she can get paid. well the lady looks at me and tells me to not leave and stay due to her wanting to give me a tip once she gets paid off. i was like ok thank you. the lady pays me a 10 dollar bill. then shortly afterwards i get told by a supervisor that the manager wants to talk to me. she then tells me that the floor people who get paid 18 dollars an hour pluss tips and the change clerk who gets minimum wage and tips usually up to 800 dollars a night average complained about me saying that i hover over jackpots to see if i can get a tip. I was instantly pissed. if there is any reason i stay is because the person asks me to stay due to him or her wanting an escort to his or her room or their car. But the reality is that they dont usually tip guards because floor people and change clerks dont like it to be known that gurads can accept tips they want them all to themselfs go figure. makes me not even want to do my job or to give good customer service. so yeah my willingness to do a better job is pretty much gone.

All around rant for the week and my opinion about games and life.

well i had an unexpected 4 day weekend with me calling out the last two days of my work week i got sick and felt so horrible. my stomach was all out of wack and to top it off my back wasnt any better. i hate days like this especially cause i know im gonna get a write up at work but it will be the first one to date for me at work so far i have a written verbal warning so no big whoop. They fall off your record after a certain time so ill be ok. I just have to make sure i have enough time off for valentines weekend cause im gonna have a 5 day weekend with Tany and J.R. im in the middle of playing a new xbox game ( army of two the 40th day ) which so far is coming out to be awesome the game play is cool and the controls are really well done unlike its predecesor.


So im also excited bout Tany and me going out to dinner and mabey a movie on valentines but who knows its all her choice i want her to be happy and feel good that night. I just hope she doesnt get sick or feels too run down to go out that night. As for all and all its been a good week other than me feeling like crap. But then again that usually happens to me. I hate the fact that my body seems to be betraying me slowly. This is one of the reasons i tell the younger kids i meet in there 20s. Dont party too hard youll be sorry. I tell them, then they look at me and go yeah right. I look at them and shake my head because i see my young friends slowly destroy their bodys with beer or booz or drugs. I saw my best friend do pot from the age of 15 to last yr 33 when he had a heart attack in his car next to his wife now he had quit doing pot due to the fact he became a family man. I dont honestly think pot had anything to do with it. But when he was younger he was doing coke and other things im sure he never told anybody about. He is still recovering from all the surgerys hes had to have after the heart attack especially due to the artery he had taken from his leg to repair the damage in his chest. They rushed him into the E.R. when his leg started to die because it lost blood flow to it.


Life is weird when it throws things like this at you. hes my best friend even though the last few yrs. we havent kept the closest touch. He has outgrown so many things like i have. Why does life have to change so much? Does it have to change? For me its been a hard long road in life. But now im finnaly where i want to be. Im with a great girl and great boy ( her son ). Would i try marrage again? Oh yeah with her yes anybody else.......I dont think so. I told her today that she was my saving grace. She thinks i would have ended up with my ex again. I told her hell no i think i would still have left my ex and if tany hadnt been in the picture i would have self destructed. I would have had a short life after that of alcohol driven rage and turned into a super A@# hole dated some hootchie girls and ended up waking up dead in my parents house found by my fam and destroyed their lifes for a while due to my stupidity.

Tany.....as i said before my saving grace. Nothing better in my life and nothing else i want more. Our relationship started very rocky but man we have come so far. I love her like nothing else in this world. She makes me be a better man and makes me strive to be better. I strive to be a good stepfather and a good man overall. Im i perfect by nomeans am i. will i ever be????? probably not. But i have no problem trying for her..........